Pointings in Views...

I suppose everyone comes from a different point of view in life..everyone seems to stand in their situation or the nature of their life or their upbringing that stems within themself. And it difficult for one person to change or even attempt to make someone else see the points in view. But yet we have people when points in views are closer and some others worlds apart. Sadly my in life, the people that brings me the key to my life's changes and happenings are the 'worlds apart' categories. There see not eye to me and therefore fails to advice help or answer the questions at hand. Yet people that see eye to me or almost eye seems to be in an entirely different group where their words are the only best help. Cause actions cannot be achieved. Yet these power and action people are also in the other group.

It was said that my life is alonely one...traveled alone and journeyed alone. I cannot see the future when I stare straight into the mist. This mist is clouding my judgement and the only people around close enough to help are blind to my lost-ness.

Onces again I try to achieve something I have no means to be able to achieve.

Best Friends without a Thot

Is it possible for goodfriends, bestfriends after so long a time go into a zone or blur-ness? That suddenly everything become blur from the passing time, and that you are just in name the BF or GF but no more actually an understanding friend? or is that scenrio only played when some assumed that the status of BF and GF was established long ago that actually in reality that it was a spoken word of no value and that it never existed? That what was build on was not the foundation stone but the muddy clay, slippery wet and anytime may collapse due to the weight of the condition of the friendship? Stains and burdens, problems and arguments? I wonder sometimes, the 'fingers' that I count are they really my BF or GF or that they are but my active imagjnation of something that does not exist and all the feelings of having this friendship was more one-side then two...

Because if the friendship was that strong, was meant to be, was in the statuse of BF and GF....then why can't it stand up to the gentle breeze of the ocean but crumple into a thousand flakes upon the clay of life?

If you were really my BF or GF, why can people come between us yet to you is just.....normal?....

If only.....

Lauf of the day......

The lauf of the day would be that when you are shouting at a face....but nothing comes of that....a face that is either too innocent or just stupid.....

I don't know which to choose.....innocent or stupid....Which will you choose?

Bother to Find...why not bother to ask?

I don't understand if one is bothered to find...so show concern yet why isn't bothered to ask or date?.....Fear or is it just lazy?....but so am I lazy...and fear....hmmm..degrees of fearness or just this society is too difficult for us to survive?

Ask me and I am yours...do you wan to believe?...will you find this in the first place again?....

No more hearts...No more Msges....No more the FIRST MOVE MAKER!!!

I don't want to be the first move maker anymore...I make the move....I try but it slaps me in the face...
Eithers its I not the type...not good enough....or super closetted....

I am tired of making the first move....making the first advancements....

Tired of being the real me...so from now.... a mask I will wear...the mask that I am suppose to be...a man...man of live man of love man of reality...

cause maybe using a mask is not as tiring of making moves that doesn't go anywhere...

So good by those who don't care....care but don't want...care and may want just too afraid....I am also afraid....so whats the difference....

I can't and don't want to wait for you all anymore.

A good bye to Cyrus, too tired to wait.... when you don't even know how to hand this maturedly...

A good bye to those now..cause I cannot be always just be behind a msn or sms.....and no action....and I don't mean s**.....

A good bye...

A New Year 2008...A New Change...

Its in the new year already...2008....the holidays of the Christmas and New Year seems to just breeze by...shopping...eating....meetings and all...but its all in the past already...a new year....but not sure if its a new beginning....

Besides all the resolutions at the beginnnig....I begin to understand myself more...that love to me is secondary....life is primary...

Addition of resolutions
1) Not to live on other's but on myself....cause living on others is so tiring....
2) Live Life day by day...no more then 2 days at a go...cause the future is too hard to predict and too hard to plan....so why plan...