It skipped Blue and went directly to Black!!!

Seems like the monday blues totally skipped pass and went directly into black..... The office seems so black today....like everyone is moody with a chance of lashing out anytime... What will the rest of the day hold for me?... What will this day end as?....I wonder....

Whispering Heart

A peom about my old blog....by someone

Whispering heart

Whispering heart
So full of soul
Wondering where
On earth you'd go

Souls have been lost
So often yet rare
'Tis not a case
so few you can't bear

Strength will prevail
In you and your heart
Know that you must
Keep faith on your part

Now in His care
Live on but still weep
For the very treasures
You know you can't keep

So many unearthens
Lay hidden, lay deep
Here in His hands
You'll eventually reap.....

Gamine

Looking back cause cannot look forward.

I am at a stage that I cannot look forward anymore. Not that I don't wan to but that there is no forward to look towards. I have reached my zenith of my tiredness, I cannot understand life as a whole anymore. The more I look forward the more I cannot move forward. But the truth is I am the one who brought me to this stage. Sin of the father three generation down? or that I am making history repeat itself? Or that because I don't like the correct gender? What sin was done so great in my life that I cannot see feel and hear grace anymore? Is it because I fail to see it? or that I don't see it anymore cause I (a) too gone to see (b) too tired to realise and see (c) or that I don't want to see?

I do not know, all I know is that my words of ending at 30th maybe coming to pass as I slip slowly away...and no one around me knows or realised this...

In the end, there is only me, I and myself...again...nothing to stop us now from doing what either should have happened 29yrs ago or completing a deed 7 yrs ago. I wonder which is worst?

I always have said that if I could turn back time, what would I change, a million things in my mind, but now, there is only one. If I could choose once again, going back to stop one event, I would stop the event that happened on 23th April 1980 at 3.45am...The event that should not have happened...or should not have allowed to be done...my coming....