Sleepless in Singapore

A sleepless night thinking about troubles at home again. Another mind blowing night that I cannot stand...I feel like breaking free...running from everything that ties me down to this unrealitic life.

Just got a msg from my dad after whole night no reply to msg or calls...saying he frustrusted and need to think about stuff or work.... Then that means I am not frustrusted too?... The family dont know the frustrustion I go thru life, they think everything is fine and dandy...but I am tired...I also wanna run away like friends around that can do that but my hanging commitments ties me to the ground and I feel like screaming...

Do they know? Do anyone know?.... No...no one knows..

2009 NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS!!!

2nd Jan 2009
My Resolution this year is a short one...only 3 main ones...but of course not forgetting the modified ones from last year...haha...

So Wish me luck as I embark on this journey of Love Life and Passion!!!...A New Journey unfolds before me, its for me to grab it by the **** and LIVE!!!!......

----------------------------------
This is the list of my 2009 New Year's resolution...last year's resolution had half done so this year I make another list of stuff I wanna. I am focusing on now things and people around more then just me and myself.

Have a read, will update as I go along untill the NY.

1) No matter how good looking, how rich, how charismatic, how people love person you are....it doesn't matter to me..cause if you arez egoistic, strong headed in the wrong sense, irritating, and rebellious....you are OUT...I don't need friends or people filling up my life with their crab... I had to many people around me with one or more of the qualities mentioned and its been a hell journney for me. So no more...I SAY NO MORE....one two three strikes and you are out. This was inspired by the Fire Drill from my work place on the 10th of Dec 2008, an incident that will shake and quake my world that people actually still think that being wrong is right?...just for their ego? for their stuborness? rebelling is cool?....think again mans....What goes around comes around. But for now you are out of my life!!!
2) Aimming for Condo by 34yo...my own place my own life...my own world YEAH!!!!.... To Pay off everything, to stop spending, to gym and work and get fit only....to save and save and save....and get my own place. GOAL FOR THE NEXT 5 YRS!!!....
3) Aimming to start and complete my PhD by 33yo....so can move up the 'academic corporate ladder'!!!.....however far I can go....



Resolution of 2008 Revam-ed (in red):
1) To be the confident, with attitude and self-centred , cool hip and definitely rocky new me.
2) To be fittest then I am ever before.... so tis 25kg more to go... I am going to gym run and do eveyrthing and anything to become like YOU. No more slacking, its train train train....run run run....gym gym gym....its 42km Standard Chartered next year for sure!!!
3) Live life for myself...only me...as in my life there is only me.... No more selfish bitches or pity-seeking idiots...all are accessories to me now and I don't need this shit.
4) Be fility rich.... Rich that those idiots will never hurt me again... Life suck..I will make it sweet to suck... Of course to pay off everything and plan 1 to get a strong savings started and a personal condo by 33yo
5) No more Str Love...Str love are for idiots...and there are many idiots out there.... What if a marriage worth? nothing!!! No amount of joy happiness and even the joy of children can cover the amount of problems, worries, troubles and most of all hurt you get in the end....my family thru with the incident, my sister going thru with the MCP-developing husband...and so many others in my life I can see....no no no as I said>I can tell you absolutely nothing...after 30 yrs its down to $180 dollars and a lifetime of debt...So its a NONO......and YES...I am BI(more gay) so...hahaha..I don't care anymore....
6) Career...yes its something that no one can survive without...and for guys its the...what they call it...'rice bowl'?...'bread-winning'? I call it crab but hey we all need money so career I am building....too the top I say...fly like I have never flown before...as since I was fat for so long..thats quite true. To FLy like I never fly before in the new place, to go where I never thot possible...with phD or without I need to be more then what I entrap myself in this current place, current situation and current life....Side line of photography and party events, COME ON IN...its more and more to do and I WILL DO IT!!!!
7) The world will now REVOLVE AROUND ME!!!...not more will other people make me revolve around them...the world is not only theirs...its now my turn to play...to go around and revolving.
8) Retirement clause revolved cause its not practical.
9) Travel around the world...YES I wanna see this joyfilled...troublefilled...and sorrowfilled world...to go places where I have never been before...alone or with someone...I wanna go...no staing still I tell you no more...I have stayed still in this crab for too long....
10) Take care of the four most important person in my life...and guess whats its no one at home..hahha....to my three besties and my little evey....you are my world now!!!
So these are my TEN COMMANDMENTs for my life now....
So thats all folks...